No really, that's me now - only without a tan. |
I have a confession; I'm
developing an addiction. No joke. It’s costing me $100 per month. That might
not sound like much but to me it’s huge. Not so much the dollar amount though;
it’s more the toll it’s taking on my body.
This growing habit is also taking up time from other
stuff; cutting into important activities. At least it feels that way. So it can
be a problem sometimes. Especially since there are only so many hours in a day.
But I'm not complaining. Instead I'm celebrating. See,
the habit I'm developing is going to the gym. Though I’m still a ways from
defining myself as a gym rat, I am starting to feel the fitness bug. That’s a
good thing; a healthy thing. I've been in and out of this habit, working out,
for most of my adult life. FYI, in my youth it was called ‘playing.’
Problem is, the older I get, the fewer chances I seem
to have for this wellness pass time. Yet I know being in this particular habit
is probably the best thing in the world for me. Not only does it help me
physically, it also affects me mentally. Emotionally too.
I'm in this photo somewhere, I swear. |
Being in shape tends to bring out my best side. I’ve
got more energy and a better attitude. But it’s hard. The getting in shape
part, that is. That's because when I'm out of shape I excel at concocting a
thousand other reasons (i.e., excuses) why I should be doing something,
anything other than pumping iron in the gym or running outside until I'm so
nauseous I feel like I’m going to be sick.
When I'm not in shape, just thinking about going to
the gym or doing anything strenuous is depressing. I think about all the hard
work it takes: the sweating, the soreness, the time away from other stuff, any
stuff I would prefer to do instead, like reorganize my sock drawer or watch
paint dry. Or ordering a double Whopper, heavy ketchup, no onions, cut in half.
That's my leg, right there - see? 5th bike back. |
Currently, I’m closing in on that psychological frame
of mind where I can't not go to the
gym, take a run or go mountain biking. It's as if my DNA is being somehow
altered. It feels as much a mental thing as it does a physical one. Life
activities and responsibilities magically re-prioritize in my mind, with being
fit and eating right bubbling to the top of my daily list of things to do.
Habits are a funny thing; they can help or do harm.
For instance, when it comes to be being a better person in other ways, like
respecting those different from me, habits can be especially helpful. Trouble
is, there are also bad habits. They creep in when I least expect it. Frequently,
I don’t even notice them – no matter how well intended I believe myself to be.
Bad habits like making assumptions and depending on stereotypes.
It takes dedication to make and break habits. It also
takes practice. However, I find the more I work at it, the easier it becomes.
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